this is my life..... confusion.... illusion... sadness.... loneliness... like this whirlwind.... its seems beautiful on the outside..... but inside.... need i say more?

this is my life WITH you in it.... the whirlwind.... filled with happiness... laughter..... joy.... care..... LOVE......my life.... is changed with you in it..... and without you..... im nothing..... im something ugly... horrible.... destroyed.... yet your here with me changing me....

LOVING me

nth is impossible..... the things we strive for just go in different paths......

bumpy...

dark and alone

the lighted path way

the easy way

BUT..... a song once said... when you want it the most..... THERES NO EASY WAY OUT.......

the path i follow maybe dark,lonely, dirty and nasty

but if thats what it takes to be with you....

i will..... take any path that leads to you...

to protect you.... to make you smile.... to love you

endurance is needed.

its not easy.... its not hard.... its extreame...... dont ask.... dont question.....

endurance is needed..... a heart full with love is needed...... help me......

im so over joyed.... yet im trying to restrain my self from that joy

control of the mind is easy.... but control of the heart is something that is impossible... joy filled my heart tonite..... im trying to think..... suddenly i feel like im moving in 1st gear....... i dunno how to react to all this..... im over joyed yet i dunno what i should do with this joy that i have now....

BUT IM HAPPY ^^

without a purpose

2 weeks of holidays... have come to an end.... havent really blog alot these few weeks...

i feel so empty..... like im living without a purpose in life....

havent gone out lately.... tmr im going out..... its the 2nd time im going out in these 2 weeks of holiday...... i guess i should have fun while im at it...

my purpose of blogging..... is a srs thing..... i guess the reason why i dont really blog as much as other ppl do its cz... i have nth to express... or dunno how to express them...... i dont believe in posting things i dont even noe what im talking abt.......

ive also been quite the lazy these few weeks.... doing nth doesnt seem to make my laziness go away xD....... but then again if you fail try try again xD.....

gotta get out...... neeeddd to hang out.... get my shine out

Today

Yesterday is history


tomorrow is a mystery

But

Today is a gift

A Speechless blogger

life feels so empty sometimes when your not here....

My heart is empty without you,Like a bird without a song. My eyes are blind without your eyes to see, Like a rose without color. My soul is shattered without your arms to hold me, Like a mirror without a reflection.

Missing you

love you

miss you....

missin me....

miss your smile..


miss you laugh....


miss your touch...

A First Kiss

i always wondered what a first kiss would feel like.... today..... was a day that will nvr forget..... march 19 2010 at around 1pm... i had my first kiss from the 1 and only woman i will ever kiss in my life......

Today

my time today with my com is almost up.... im blogging abt today becz... today... was such a great day.....

there are so many momments today that i will treasure... it was a happy day... for me ^^... i was so confused..... my mind.... i felt like nth....

they say a man can nvr survive without a women... i bliv in that.... she was there for me... she was ALWAYS there for me.... shes there whens she not needed... shes there when she is needed.... how bleessed i am to have such a woman to share my life with...

i dont noe what i would do without her.... i love you baby....

then came the night..... im not gonna post it here cz i already posted it in my previous post... so...... good bye for now..... enjoy

A starry night to remember

Such a night..... she was more than a man could ever dream for.... just by her mere touchin words... my heart could treamble....

it was nearing 11pm... the stars were such a beauty.... her beauty could not be compared to anything in this universe... but then again....

at that momment i really felt like dying... dying of love sickness..... havin to be so far away from her..... havin to not be abel to hear her voice... or kiss her lipssss.... the pressence of her was all that wanted.....


the next time there is a night like this... i wont let you out of my sight

im worthless

why... why do i feel so worthless... these feelings in my mind.. i feel like i dont deserve you,

confused,angry,sad, or just all mixed up together

im so useless

i love you dear. so so much
i noe i make mistakes,but forgive me and rejoice in our greats.
i love you i love you. such earthly words are the least i can say
we're one in so many ways, we are great, we are kind,our love is divine
if you were here with me now these words wont be said
I LOVE YOU !

Always

The day you were born, the whole world was blessed
These thoughts in my mind to you I must confess

The time has come for me to express my true feelings
You are the center of my thoughts and the essence of my being

What you have brought me I never thought I could procure
The gift of comfort, with you I am secure

For you have lifted me up from a life filled with sorrow
And made me realize there is always a better tomorrow

It amazes me how someone can make me feel this way
i love you more and more with each passing day

You brighten my days and lift my spirits
I have felt this for so long and now want you to hear it

So you may know the place you hold in my heart
You are always with me even when we're apart

I truly believe what we have is meant to be
Just open your heart and soon you shall see

What I am willing to do to keep a smile on your face
Just know that I'm here and will be always

yo!!!!! im back!!!

woohoo!!!!.... after what seem to be nearly 2 weeks of.. well inactive blogging..... chirssy perez has come back to mummble ant his life... i'll try to make this post as interesting and creative as possible ... cz ryte now im acutally KINDA lazy xD....

hmmm hmmmmm lemmy think.... what happen in the last 2 weeks.... OH yeah.... sports day..... lost bla bla hot day, hot chris, sun burn etc...... hmm worship led my church FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME.... great experience =D...... practice was kinda hard for me to sing.... especially when my leader said that i was the most important in ALOT of songs.... haha as flattering as that soundsssss. its no fun at all xD......... hmmmm and not to forget my bros BURFDAY!.....
almost forgot until i rmbered it in the afternoon! man im such a bad bro.... but on the other hand... what are bros for?! xD xD xD

went for a church outing... the place was OK gua.... really natural thats what i can say... had alot of feelings stuck in my mind that time..... going thru stuff that some of you may noe in the future....... the journey there was just loong and tiring... a certain person kept coming up in my mind.... when i reached there... still couldnt stop thinking abt her..... to be honest i always think abt this person dont ask why.... the place and time really put me into the mood of poetry... inspration came from all corners amazingly.... looking back to that time i think that was my my best poem yet..... lololol ANYWAY!.... back to my trip! ahem!...... the water stream there was cold.... it made me think thrice whether to go in..... before that there were snacks big breakfasts.... ppl brought their food from the own individual homes.... apparently it was nice.....

but as or now..... nth much really happened..... i feeling like things are coming apart..... and to make things worst exam are coming this tues...... IM EXTREAMLY SORRY IF MY BLOG BORES YOU.... im just not good at telling jokes..... or i guess im just scared it will be lame...... OH YES.... forgot 1 thing!.... i got a new wallet!..... hahaha.... i love it... and i love the giver xD....... thank you! xD....... as for now thats all for my grandaddy stories..... and errrm oh..... yeah... here are some pics.... plsss enjoy! ^^


the waterfall stream!!!!.... didnt have good lighting at my position xpanother stream gua?Good looking shoot by a good looking photographer xD
my snack....joe enjoying his waterfall-side meal....MY bros BURFDAY cake!... it was really yummy... srslythese are just photos of my dog... erm well as you can see... we had nth better to do xD... got 4 dif pics you be the judge on which is better ^^
i found this interesting picture while i was browsing thru my phone.... haha.... lovely ^^

CNY night party!

First things first!....

got lots of ANG PAU!

great party..... as of now.... my dad is still there drinking haha...... so many ppl turned up.... beautiful FIREWORKS baby!..... although i didnt get a good picture of it xD.... neewayz here are the pics... enjoy ^^

had to leave the dogs at home T.T.... dogs like to party too you noe? xD

look at the amount of cars man.... and behind me still got

My fav place.... "empty".. T.T

im burnin up... burnin up!...... for you baby!

food, food, food... thats all i gotta say abt this pt xD

dont worry granma... the coke is all yours!

warriors of the night assembling xD

fireworks! didnt get a good shot >.<

thats its guys!.... see ya nex time....

boring sunway trip

went sunway today...... woohoo..... =.=... did the same things wasted abit of money in the arcade ^^.......oh yeah bought i present for a friend.... surprisingly had alot of ppl there during chinese new year... probably dont HAVE any grandparents to visit gua... got 3 ang pau's so far..... all together RM110.... xD.....

had a really hard time shopping for her present... took me almost 2hrs to buy it haha.... and it cost me 50 bucks! man the price of things these day!.... although im not sure if she'll like it xp......

DARN FOR GOT TO TAKE PICTURES AGAIN!

CNY firecrackers "pop" goes valentines

its my first time blogging.... dont really noe what to write... with all the noise of the gun powder pounding my eardrums from out side... it just makes it sooooo much easier to think..... well first of all.... its CNY... second of all... its valentines.... dont be surprise if you get chocolates for "angpau"

trying to get my mind straight.... alot of things happened this year, but i could say that i had faced worst, oh yeah, and some 1 ask me out as a valentine YTD, too bad i said no, as for what i answered her... thats a secret yet to be told, and if your wondering if i asked anybody.... thats a secret as well ^^

getting sleepy.... i guess that should be it for my first time, i promise nex time there will be pics.... happy CNY! and dont forget to wish your "special someone" valetines too.... chrissy perez signing off