this is my life..... confusion.... illusion... sadness.... loneliness... like this whirlwind.... its seems beautiful on the outside..... but inside.... need i say more?

this is my life WITH you in it.... the whirlwind.... filled with happiness... laughter..... joy.... care..... LOVE......my life.... is changed with you in it..... and without you..... im nothing..... im something ugly... horrible.... destroyed.... yet your here with me changing me....

LOVING me

nth is impossible..... the things we strive for just go in different paths......

bumpy...

dark and alone

the lighted path way

the easy way

BUT..... a song once said... when you want it the most..... THERES NO EASY WAY OUT.......

the path i follow maybe dark,lonely, dirty and nasty

but if thats what it takes to be with you....

i will..... take any path that leads to you...

to protect you.... to make you smile.... to love you

endurance is needed.

its not easy.... its not hard.... its extreame...... dont ask.... dont question.....

endurance is needed..... a heart full with love is needed...... help me......

im so over joyed.... yet im trying to restrain my self from that joy

control of the mind is easy.... but control of the heart is something that is impossible... joy filled my heart tonite..... im trying to think..... suddenly i feel like im moving in 1st gear....... i dunno how to react to all this..... im over joyed yet i dunno what i should do with this joy that i have now....

BUT IM HAPPY ^^

without a purpose

2 weeks of holidays... have come to an end.... havent really blog alot these few weeks...

i feel so empty..... like im living without a purpose in life....

havent gone out lately.... tmr im going out..... its the 2nd time im going out in these 2 weeks of holiday...... i guess i should have fun while im at it...

my purpose of blogging..... is a srs thing..... i guess the reason why i dont really blog as much as other ppl do its cz... i have nth to express... or dunno how to express them...... i dont believe in posting things i dont even noe what im talking abt.......

ive also been quite the lazy these few weeks.... doing nth doesnt seem to make my laziness go away xD....... but then again if you fail try try again xD.....

gotta get out...... neeeddd to hang out.... get my shine out

Today

Yesterday is history


tomorrow is a mystery

But

Today is a gift

A Speechless blogger

life feels so empty sometimes when your not here....

My heart is empty without you,Like a bird without a song. My eyes are blind without your eyes to see, Like a rose without color. My soul is shattered without your arms to hold me, Like a mirror without a reflection.

Missing you

love you

miss you....

missin me....

miss your smile..


miss you laugh....


miss your touch...